Thursday, January 22, 2009

The daily gem that made my day

A few posts ago I mentioned that I signed up to get daily gems from Here is the one today that I really, really needed to read:

Mothers' Commitment to Children

Posted: 22 Jan 2009 01:00 AM CST

"We need to remember that the full commitment of motherhood and of putting children first can be difficult. Through my own four-generation experience in our family, and through discussions with mothers of young children throughout the Church, I know something of a mother's emotions that accompany her commitment to be at home with young children. There are moments of great joy and incredible fulfillment, but there are also moments of a sense of inadequacy, monotony, and frustration. Mothers may feel they receive little or no appreciation for the choice they have made. Sometimes even husbands seem to have no idea of the demands upon their wives. "As a Church, we have enormous respect and gratitude to you mothers of young children. We want you to be happy and successful in your families and to have the validation and support you need and deserve."

M. Russell Ballard, "Daughters of God," Ensign, May 2008, 109

I have been having many "moments of a sense of inadequacy" and they are usually much more than "moments." I work with the Young Women in our ward and I am always encouraging them to see themselves as the Lord sees them, and as I see them. And yet I feel like a hypocrite because I still can't do the same.
The good moments are so so good. I have so much to be grateful for. And yet I still feel lost in a fog. The real Sharla, the one I know is hiding out inside somewhere just can't seem to make it all the way out.
But all I can do is take it a day at a time and try to do my best. Is my best good enough for me ?
No. But I hope that it will be enough.
I know that it's okay to have my Savior carry me for a while.


  1. I love that. It is something we need to remind ourselves of daily.

    I hope the "real" Sharla can come out soon. Please let me know if I can help.


  2. I think that we are more alike then either of us realize. That is why I want to share with you two scriptures that I have read when I felt alot like how you are feeling. The first was this,
    "And except ye have charity ye can in nowise be saved in the kingdom of God; neither can ye be saved in the kingdom of God if ye have not faith; neither can ye if ye have no hope.
    And if ye have no hope ye must needs be in despair; and despair cometh because of iniquity."
    As you can imagine I was not feeling too uplifted by this, but it did open my eyes to something I was doing which was causing my unhappiness. Then after that I read,
    "And awake, and arise from the dust, O Jerusalem; yea, and put on thy beautiful garments, O daughter of Zion; and strengthen thy stakes and enlarge thy borders forever, that thou mayest no more be confounded."
    When I read this it was like Heavenly Father was literally telling me to wake up and get my mind clear. I don't know if this helps you but it helped me. The last thing I wanted to say is, and I am sure you know, those feelings are from Satan!, he wants you to feel inadequate because if he knows that is your soft point then he knows that he can keep you from truly uplifting others and being better by always playing on that. You are amazing! I can see it and so can others around you, don't cheat yourself by letting Satan convince you that you are not amazing. That "fog" I have felt many times, it is Satan! Always remember how amazing you are, Heavenly Father has made many beautiful creations, the planets, the universe, even beyond the universe yet despite all that He considers YOU to be his most beautiful creation. Try to remember that each day when you are faced with sadness or whatever it may be and remember that all around are people who want to help you reach your fullest potential! Love you sis!

  3. Of course I can't add anything to top that last comment. But know that I pray for you and all the other Moms because we need a strong next generation. Our prayers are being answered.